The Great Pause

Winter Lace Mandala by Sue O’Kieff

Let’s Think While We Wait

Lately I’ve seen a few references to this time of waiting as “the great pause” and it seems like a fitting label. We humans don’t handle multiple uncertainties well at the best of times and this is definitely not that. I’ve been finding guidance and clarity from reading Tribal news reports and commentaries. Written by people who have survived centuries of colonialist attacks and rampant racism, these writings hold wisdom that mainstream North American culture has lost or more likely never had in the first place. Reading an account of ways in which women’s traditions around healing were still helpful, I found myself teary eyed, wishing I had any kind of cultural tradition of healing to follow.

When I think about what I was taught about American traditions, it’s clear that our insistence on individuality won out over being a people. We were never a people, never united, never sharing a truthful cultural identity. Things are changing though; around here, there’s increasing acknowledgment that we white folks are, hello, living on someone else’s land. There was a popular story among early white settlers on this island that native people never lived here. All the settlements were dismissed as fish camps, cleared away to make room for saw mills and shipyards and farms. Now we are learning that we are living on land that was cared for by the Suquamish people for thousands of years. Thousands.

Lovers Of The Land

Here’s what the tribal website says:

“‘Suquamish’ translates to “people of the clear saltwater” in Southern Lushootseed, the language of the Suquamish People. D’suq’wub, meaning “place of the clear salt water,” has been home to the Suquamish people since time immemorial. It is the ancient place on Agate Passage, the site of Old-Man-House village, the winter home of Chief Seattle and the heart of the Suquamish People. It is here — past, present, and future — that the Suquamish People live on the land of their ancestors and of their great-grandchildren.”

Who among us can say anything similar? You are blessed if you can claim anything remotely like such a lineage, such a relationship of people and place. Last week, Suquamish Tribal Chairman Leonard Forsman wrote this:

“Many have called the outbreak of the COVID-19 pandemic unprecedented. For the Suquamish Tribe, the original inhabitants of this land, this is not new. Since first contact in 1792, we faced waves of destructive diseases that killed thousands of our people. Our ancestors survived, though, strengthened by cultural beliefs that center on protecting the environment, honoring elders, and planning with future generations in mind.

“Many in Kitsap share these values, and our common purpose has helped create a resilient community that is able to meet the threat posed by today’s pandemic…. During this pause for social isolation, we should reflect on the things we most value. As we rebuild, we should do so in a way that protects our waters and sea life, and invests in the well-being of our youth and elders. We should consider the impacts of everything we do on the next seven generations.”

Reflecting On Clear Water

One thing I’ve been reflecting about is the way pollution is clearing up in rivers and lakes that are no longer watery highways. The skies are clearing over cities where cars are parked, streets are empty, and business is not as usual. It’s so often claimed that we simply can’t afford to change our ways in order to halt climate change, but apparently when it’s a matter of life or death, we can. Water is clear, skies are clear, air is clean, and humans have stopped our ceaseless restless race to grab and snatch. In this clearing process we can see that our beloved earth, like the human body, has an astonishing ability to rebalance; earth’s systems tend towards regaining health naturally unless overburdened by disease or damage. If we stop actively destroying our planet, it can heal, the oceans can heal, the forests can heal, the soil can heal.

Obviously we CAN stop, because we just did. But now what? It’s my deepest hope that we don’t try to return to business as usual, and I’m pretty sure that will prove impossible anyway. Instead, we seriously need to find new ways to live and work. Today I was moved to tears (yes, again) to learn that the governors of Washington, Oregon and California announced a Western States Pact, a plan to carefully restart our shared economies, putting the health and wellbeing of all our people first. The plan is based on science-based information, in vivid contrast to the amorphous national strategies of confusion, confustication and bebotherment.

Becoming A People

I am hopeful that this collaborative effort is a step towards becoming a people, rather than a nation. Like many aging hippies, I cherish the high dream of a country where everyone matters, where health and wellbeing is at least as important as the GNP, and where productivity is redefined to eliminate destructive and extractive industries. Changing human nature is difficult, slow work, yet in many ways we are accelerating the process even as the entrenched old guard dig in and fight back as hard as they can. More people are literate today than at any previous time in history. Fewer people live in poverty than ever before. When we are watching, we can see signs of progress even in totalitarian countries; maybe few and far between, but any sign at all is a miracle.

One positive effect of the pandemic that has the human world shut down is that we are seeing each other as people. We weep for New York as we weep for Italy and Iran. We cheer for China and Japan when it looks like the virus has been slowed or even possibly stopped and groan when flareups recur. We celebrate Germany and New Zealand, places where quick action and cooperative response have changed the story. It seems to take a disaster for us to recognize our common humanity but now that we have a Really Big One to share, I believe most of us are starting to see ourselves and each other as one people. Whatever it takes, it’s worth it.

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Keeping In Touch Without Touching

If you can’t dye Easter eggs, try sheep…natural dyes of course

A Flurry Of Flower Fairies

Today Washington State Governor Jay Inslee announced that schools will remain closed until September. A lot of other institutions and businesses will remain closed as well, of course, and millions of people are wondering how long we can keep this level of isolation going. Watching New York’s struggles to find safe places to put thousands of their dead makes it pretty clear that we are going to figure this out together, because the alternative is just too horrifying. As I walk around my neighborhood, I’m seeing fewer people, all of whom avoid me as assiduously as I avoid them, unless we recognize each other, in which case we pause at increasingly large distances to exchange a few catch-up questions and answers before moving on. Most of the other walkers are wearing home made masks more or less like ours, in a pleasing array of colors and prints. The colorful masks seem like a symbol of our willingness to cooperate, to do what we can to try to flatten the damn curve. Maybe we are all the more willing since there are now over 100 cases in our county, and the first local person has died of covid-19.

For me, as for so many, the garden is more comforting than ever. Checking my seed trays, sowing more of this and that, tidying up the beds, making room for the seedlings that are popping up, all this is the most soothing activity in my day. However, as I puttered this morning, something even more delightful happened: Two cars pulled up in front of my little garden and two small families spilled out, carefully distanced from each other and from me. From each car came a kindergartener and parents, all garbed in homemade costumes. Fluttering wings, floral headbands, bright sashes, colorful clothes were set off by large hand painted signs explaining which kind of fairy I was seeing. A geranium fairy, an azalea, a camellia, a bluebell, a cherry blossom, all twirled and pranced and laughed and joked, then flew away to cheer up the next person on their list.

Meeting The Need


The two families had chosen 10 people to visit, including school teachers and friends like me. It was an enchanting little episode and it still makes me smile to think about it. It also made me vow to reach out more myself, to make more calls, even to do a drive-by or two myself. I have done a few, dropping off bread and cinnamon rolls to my grandkids, who waved sadly from the doorway. I’ve been baking for the family for years and home delivery seemed like a fun idea but I cried all the way home. I’m deeply grateful that they’re safe and well but it breaks my heart not to be able to hug them. And man truly does not live by bread alone; I made a loaf of sourdough for a dear friend who just entered Hospice care and learned that the real need was for toilet paper. At the store, I found single rolls available (limit four per customer) and dropped them off to even more heartfelt thanks.

In my neighborhood, two young women decided to start growing some of their own food. Neither one has a very sunny yard, but I helped them figure out where to put some big pots by using our phones to send pictures back and forth. I dug out some extra seed trays and gave them a turn with the shared seed packets that have been going the rounds. Most of us just have tiny gardens and many seed packets contain way more than any of us can use. There was a whole pack of sweet peas left over so I sowed them in small pots to pass around the neighborhood when they sprout. Several of us are sowing flats of different vegetables and will swap when they’re big enough to transplant. Community building with kale and turnips! At least we don’t have to plant the vegetables six feet apart…

Let’s Stay In Touch

For some folks, distanced visits or drive-bys aren’t possible, but we can find ways to connect even so. One neighbor’s dad is in quarantine at a local senior living facility, so he stands outside his dad’s window and talks to him on the phone. Another friend tapes cute pictures of grandkids and cats on her mom’s window and shows her family videos on a tablet held up to the window. One of my significantly impaired elderly friends is in lock-down in a nursing facility and doesn’t like to leave her phone on, which makes it extremely difficult to call her. Instead, we send cards with interesting images-she was a photographer and an artist and it’s fun to find pictures that might appeal to her.

This ongoing separation is making it very clear that friendship really does need to be actively cultivated, just like our weedy gardens. When we can’t keep up our weekly lunches or coffee dates or have tea and knit together, we have to get a bit more creative to stay in touch. Phone calls can feel a little stilted when there’s not much that’s new to talk about (especially when people are out of work), but we can always swap recipes for cooking with leftovers and random ingredients. We can also take this opportunity to go deeper than usual, being honest about the struggle to cope with an unimaginable situation. If we have a hard time writing cards, we can send poems instead of chit chat. Really, I don’t think it matters that much what we say, as long as the essential message is, I’m thinking about you, missing you, and wishing you well. Onward, right?

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Overcoming Fear Of Food

Grow Greens For Peace Of Mind

“I never thought I’d be afraid of my groceries”, one friend recently posted. She’s definitely not alone; I’ve been dismayed to hear neighbors talk (or mostly text) about how they’re dealing with their own groceries these days. Washing, scrubbing, wiping down packaging, bathing produce in bleach water…. Such measures may be wise but can be taken too far. Another friend recently said sadly that her cabbage salad tasted a bit medicinal after being soaked in soapy water, then a dilute bleach solution. Whoa there! I’ve seen the same videos you have, of doctors demonstrating their clean room technique on fruits and vegetables. But I’ve also seen this interview (see below) with Dr. Fauci and Trevor Noah and I’m definitely putting more trust in the words of one of the the world’s leading (and up to the minute informed) experts on infectious diseases
than in random media posts, however well intentioned.

Posted March 26: Dr Fauci answers important questions in about 15 minutes. Wow!

Do Not Be Afraid

Fear mongering is always popular on social media, because our human brains are hard wired to follow up on perceived threats. It’s certainly good to stay informed, but it’s also vitally important that we not allow our fearful lower selves to get sucked into obsessive information seeking (ask me how I know). There’s some excellent information and advice online, but there’s also a lot of absurd and even dangerous crap going around, some of which purports to be from leading universities or experts but are actually junk.

When I realize that I’ve lost way too much time to the internet, I’m making a point of going outside and breathing. Whether I’ve got the juice for a brisk walk or can only manage a leisurely stroll around the block, I always feel less flustered and more centered after some fresh air and exercise, however mild.

Productivity Is Not Important

One of the hardest parts of our prolonged home stay is feeling that I’m not being productive. Thinking of millions of people working so hard to keep us fed and safe and alive makes me feel like a total “useless mouth” (though I’m not signing up to die for the economy, thanks all the same). Quite a few people have shared similar feelings, and some confess to feeling steeped in shame for not using the time to write a novel or at least clean the bathroom. Personally, I’ve been feeling zoned out, stunned into immobility. For weeks, I wondered if I were simply burned out into apathy until something would break through and I’d find myself weeping with all my heart. How can we bear the weight of the world’s suffering? How can we bear the depth of human depravity not to mention stupidity? Well, we can’t. And that’s just fine, for now.  I’ve been reading this comforting, tender and tough minded little essay-ette from YES Magazine over and over for the past few days:

An Anarchist Quaker’s Prayer to Soothe Anxiety

Grow Grow Grow Your Own

In the meantime, just stop looking at all those videos about food handling. Making us afraid of food is unconscionable, especially in such stressful times, when food is considered one of the greatest comforts for most people. Relax! It still can be and should be, since according to the latest information from the Centers For Disease Control, “There is currently no evidence to support transmission of COVID-19 associated with food.” See below for more information on access to food, fresh food handling, and food safety during the coronavirus pandemic.

For now, if you find yourself slipping into food fear (or any other kind, really), put down your device, go outside and plant some greens. Really. You’ll feel better almost immediately and you’ll certainly eat better with lots of fresh greens on hand that don’t need any more decontamination than a swish in cool water and a quick spin dry. Fortunately, nurseries that grow and sell edible plants have been recognized as essential (well duh) so plants and starts are still available. Some nurseries are offering free local delivery, others are letting people call in and pay for orders, then drive through the parking lot for pick up. Take advantage of local options for everyone’s sake (we may save an industry as well as our sanity).

Sunshine And Lettuce

This morning, I’m taking comfort in transplanting young lettuces and kale, and in gleaning the first tiny radishes and baby carrots while thinning crowded pots. We’ve been eating kale daily all winter, and after I pinched back the side shoots (awesome in salads and stir fries) a few weeks ago, our matronly plants are producing new growth already. There have been a few pleasant hours amid the drizzle lately so I dragged a couple of metal chairs into the sunny gravel pad where in former times visitors used to park. Sigh. Anyway, now I can take a break from weeding and chat comfortably with a passing neighbor, who can safely join me (ten feet away) for a few minutes of shared peace. May peace be with you all!

More info:

https://www.cdc.gov/foodsafety/newsletter/food-safety-and-Coronavirus.html

For

https://www.usda.gov/coronavirus

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Bathing In Light

Classic Tree Frog Meditation

So Grateful For Spring

It’s spring. Maybe that sounds vapid. However, after weeks of self isolation and cold weather, the sights and sounds of returning spring are as refreshing as a vacation. Chickadees changing over to their springtime Phoebe call. Robins gathering nesting material. Adorable little junkos flitting from twig to twig. Seeds sprouting, buds swelling, blossoms opening; it’s all more intoxicating than ever. Because it turns out that even for introverts, a staycation can get tedious, especially in a small house. I’m not complaining, mind you; my daughter and I are endlessly grateful for this comfortable little home in a charming, supportive neighborhood. Last night she even said, “This is a wonderful moment,” as the dusk drew in, both of us reading good bits out loud now and then, both cats purring contentedly (for once, no hissing despite proximity!). Since she’s been sleeping all day more often than not (a common sign of persistent depression for her) this pleasant moment felt like a breath of spring.

I’m deeply, profoundly grateful for such moments, because a lot of the time I’m quietly, secretly terrified. Like everyone else, I’m concerned about the millions of people who have contracted the virus and are ill, and those who have it but have few or no symptoms. Naturally I’m worried sick for people in nursing homes and hospitals, for healthcare workers, grocery store and pharmacy staff, those working in food service so we can all eat. I’m so sad for the homeless people and those in jail and various kinds of incarceration who have no way to protect themselves. And of course I’m hoping that I and my family and my friends and neighbors won’t get the virus. At the same time, I’m trying to stay positive, not to ignore bad news but aiming not to make anyone feel worse than they already do.

Peace Like A Wave

I hadn’t realized how deeply I was letting the continuous stream of frightening news get to me until I discovered that I had “lost” a day; suddenly it was Saturday, not Friday. Without the usual framework of obligations and tasks to hang them on, the days slip by uncounted. I suppose if I were caught up in deep meditation each day, spreading peace around my world, that would be an elevated way to live. Sadly, I’ve just been too shaken to remember not to over-focus on the horrible news. Fortunately a friend sent me a peaceful meditation video, one I used to listen to every day during a very dark time, but had forgotten. Once again, it helped me break the bleak fascination with the current darkness.

Having the video running nearby as I knit helps me focus on the intentions I prefer when knitting for others; stitch by stitch, I think or even say them out loud. Peace, comfort, ease, wellbeing, compassion, loving kindness, acceptance, clarity, release, reconciliation, renewal, awareness, openness, happiness, friendship, gratitude…. After a while, the words carry me out of the depths into a lighter, brighter state of being where I can think more calmly and breathe more deeply. Ahhh. Feels a LOT better. You may not have a similar response but it turns out there are zillions of meditation videos, with bird song and jungle noises, with sounds of mountain streams and little creeks, with wind or rain, or just the gentle swish of waves. If you too are finding yourself stuck in the dark, just calling up the meditation I’m using will also bring up a wide array of different options to try.

Meditation; Koshi chimes and ocean waves
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jNXAqJh2LGc

Bathing In The Light

Yesterday I went for my usual careful ramble around the neighborhood, seeing almost no one until I came upon a couple of older women who were perched on large cement blocks at the edge of our local farmer’s market space. Despite the watery sunshine, nobody else was in sight. The women were sitting a careful 10 feet apart and talking about how they’ve been spending their days in isolation, reading, writing, crafting, cooking. I stood another 10 feet away and we shared experiences and stories and ideas for a stimulating half hour before they stiffly got off the cold slabs to return to their homes. I kept walking for a while, thinking about how restorative positive human interactions can be and hoping I never take them for granted again.

When I got home, my garden was bathed in sunlight, a situation that doesn’t last all that long, since there are tall buildings and taller trees on every side. This little lot had not been tended much for a number of years, so there’s still plenty of weeding to do. Bindweed, Bishop’s weed, buttercup, archangel, running grasses and thistles, all frolic in the poor soil, so whenever it’s not too cold, I can spend a happy hour pulling and prying and digging up roots. When the light was lost and a bitter little wind arose, I went inside, feeling more refreshed in spirit than I have in weeks. Today as I returned to my weeding, I heard tree frogs singing for the first time, a beloved sound that brought tears to my eyes. A older neighbor stopped by to tell me about her recent travels to visit family in Germany. “It’s not scary if you stay with your experiences,” she reminded me. “Don’t focus on what you hear, stay with what you can see for yourself.” Watery sunshine spilled over us as we talked. Filtered through flitting clouds and wavering in warmth, it poured down generously, bathing us in light.

 

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